I'm trying to be a better person...

Every day I strive to be a better person. I used to not care very much about being better. But, then you have kids and you realize what a special gift you have and you realize that maybe you shouldn't be such a crappy person. I try to emulate Jesus...which is what each and every one of us is called to do, but MAN it's really hard. I love the Lord, I love my family, I love my friends, but...you're suppossed to love EVERYONE..even your enemies--YUCK. Who wants to do that. I don't really have enemies but I have people I don't really LIKE. Emulating Jesus is a lot harder than it sounds--b/c he was really good. Like Good enough to be the SON OF GOD GOOD. And I'm not. I try, but I like to gossip and I get mad sometimes and I am greedy..I like money...well not so much money..but the things money buys. So it's really hard but I guess the key is just keep trying. Go to church. Love and respect as many people as you possibly can. Try to do GOOD things. Try not to gossip. Give to charity. Give all that you can to God and hope to do better each day and maybe just maybe if I do all of that I'll make it to heaven and hopefully I'll see you there..I hope But on a lighter note..today's my Tyler's 2nd Birthday and I am putting on my happy face and baking a cake even though secretly I know it just means he's one more year closer to telling me to "shut-up and go away" which I frequently told my mother. But, today I do thank God that 2 years ago on this day at 8 am we were blessed w/ this wonderful little man who I JUST LOVE so much. He's great, WONDERFUL! WONDERFUL! WONDERFUL! I love him and I thank GOD for him so much. I cannot put in to words